turning head

all i want to do is turn your head... make you chase me.... but all i seem to accomplish is raising the dead. got my shovel in hand and regrets in my heart. wish i could go back and stop you and let you know how this feels. trying to live a Godly life and Satan somehow got a thread of my sweater. he pulls and tugs until i feel like there is nothing left. only to his demise... that is just the way Christ would have it.

sliding doors

had a flashback to way back then. just thinking about a friend, a truck and an ice cream shop. seemed like those were complicated days. all seems way too real now. if i only knew then what i know now. would i go back and change just one slight thing... that might change the whole story line all over again? would my friend be alive? guess i have some regrets of steps i didn't take and wrongs that i would erase.

Father, forgive my ignorance back then and even today. don't want to have those same regrets and make those same mistakes. i know YOU stand in front of me leading all the way. feels like that blurs my vision of the steps i have to take. guess that is part of trusting YOU.

Lev. 12

Lev. 12:⁶ “When the time of purification is completed for either a son or a daughter, the woman must bring a one-year-old lamb for a burnt offering and a young pigeon or turtledove for a purification offering. She must bring her offerings to the priest at the entrance of the Tabernacle.^c]">[c] ⁷ The priest will then present them to the Lord to purify her.^d]">[d] Then she will be ceremonially clean again after her bleeding at childbirth. These are the instructions for a woman after the birth of a son or a daughter.


Got this image in my head of this woman trying to get to her purification ritual.... baby in arms, tugging on a stubborn lamb, carrying a cage with a pigeon or turtledove and no husband in sight.

fireproof

Lev. 6:¹³ Remember, the fire must be kept burning on the altar at all times. It must never go out.

Lev. 7:¹⁵ The meat of the peace offering of thanksgiving must be eaten on the same day it is offered. None of it may be saved for the next morning.

(our offering of thanksgiving must be fresh every morning and our love must be kept burning on the altar of our hearts at all times)

fireproof

Lev. 6:¹³ Remember, the fire must be kept burning on the altar at all times. It must never go out.

funeral

epitaphs are interesting to me. this is one on a grave stone in a small older graveyard in Calhoun, LA that i found doing a grave rubbing for a Sr. year in H.S. project. it is one that will forever be etched into my memory. i don't know the person or even remember when he or she died. the first word of the last line is the most important.. PREPARE.

Remember friend as you walk by
As you are now so once was I
As I am now you will surely be
Prepare thyself to follow me.

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dirty walk

holding my friends hand and walking down the road. so happy to have you walking with me. trees surround us and the pathway is dirty. my ear tunes to the sound of a pick up truck coming in behind us or may be just me. had this feeling someone was watching our every move. He has found us. my heart stops one beat. got the aroma of fresh brewed coffee in my nostrils. i awake from this dream walk.


Matt. 26: 58 Meanwhile, Peter followed him at a distance and came to the high priest’s courtyard. He went in and sat with the guards and waited to see how it would all end.

got this feeling Peter knew too. he knew that though he followed at a distance that HE saw him and was watching his every move. his pathway was dirty. he could have changed the story ending. yet, he chose to do nothing.