deep end

standing at the end of the diving board, wearing my size 5 swimsuit, swarms of emotions fill me. i am not crazy about even this height and not a big fan of swimming. i ponder what got me here to begin with. i am hot and really need a cool down, so i plunge into the deep, blue water and emerge with a deep breath. my skin all cooled now, i swim to the shallow end. when my foot strikes the concrete, i stop swimming and begin to wade around searching for the steps.