shoe boy

worn toes but not worn soles. her son can't walk. he crawls on the floor. has to be age 5 or more. made me sad to see his fate.

snorkel

in over my head with just a tube barely sticking out for air. they call this thing a snorkel. i gasp for just a little bit of air. so close to the surface that water comes in when i breathe once again. see the light of the sun just above me, but feel trapped in this ocean surrounding me. i look down at the coral below. it's beauty makes me question why it is hidden. searching for which direction to take. i stand up. the water is just a foot above my waist.

laughing to myself

made a new friend at work from south africa. she was telling me how in south africa the handicapped drive automatic cars and everyone else drives a stick.

blood on my hands

with an epidemic scare of aids and other diseases, one would think they would use more precautions working with kids and stuff. loading the bus today a kid screamed out and with the instinct of a parent I ran to his aid. he had a nose bleed. i didn't think, i didn't have time. just cupped my hands under his nose. by the time i got him to the front of the bus, i had his blood on my hands. who's blood do you have on yours?

batman band aids

satan always wants to mess up a God day. i haven't had much time to blog since I started my summer camp job so let me catch you up. Last sunday while getting ready for church, i got tangled in the hair straightener cord. needless to say, it came tumbling off the counter and fell straight on my leg.... just like my leg was the hair.... hot metal on the side and front of my right leg. i have to have 3rd degree burns on it. the skin immediately fell off. do i need to say how painful this was and still is? but now i am the cool mom wearing batman band aids.

all ya got

tomorrow will be two weeks of summer camp over and just 6 more to endure. hasn't really been that bad. more conflicts with new employer than the kids. having a moment early this week where I just wanted to give up and quit. then God reminded me that i am not working for HER, i am working for HIM and these kids. so i am giving it all i got now and just avoiding her as much as possible. guess i am doing it my way and not too worried.... taking the initiative and pressing forward. thank you GOD that i am working with the right person.

forgetting how to love

saying things without making a complete thought, words all jumbled, not the truth. hurting of the one i love in a moment of not thinking it through. forgetting for a moment how to love with my words and now my best friend bares a scar. this time i hit the bullseye of your tender, compassionate heart. words of forgiveness are spoken, but deep down i know the truth. the words that were spoken have left something that maybe forgiveness cannot remove.

12 chocolate chip cookies

my best friend's mom always said that the road to hell was paved with good intentions. i bought a dozen choc. chip cookies and was going to take them to our new neighbor yesterday. i procrastinated, but the dog didn't. when i left this morning the box was still there, screaming my name. this afternoon the box was under the dining table with not a crumb to show. i will probably have a sick dog tonight.

heart strings 2

over did it on friday and didn't eat lunch or take my meds. guess i just wanted to be like normal people. over did it again yesterday by going to the pool and doing grocery shopping, changing sheets, and all that stuff. dragging today with a long week in sight. i'll be out the door before 7:20 and won't be home until almost 7pm only to get up and do it everyday next week. want to just lay down for a long summer's nap. guess i am pulling at my own heart strings. cried and poured out this morning. hope you heard me Lord. can't go on like this. you alone know that.