today

the future seems so far away, but i often forget that yesterday is now today. what a privilege to be a vessel in God's hands.

God still speaks

seeking God? perhaps God has spoken but we are not satisfied with HIS answer.

seeking God like crazy

some days seeking God frustrates me. yep, i said it. it frustrates me. wanting so badly to hear his voice say this is the way or this isn't the way..... walk here, wait here, go here. i so badly want to please him that it just makes me sick thinking i might not.... that i might disappoint him once more... go the wrong way or shut the wrong door. God see my heart, hear my prayer, taste my tears, smell my fears, touch my feet and help me to move in the right direction or just stay here.

the sins of the people

it is monday morning. one woman tries to cover the sins of her people. she works, she slaves to no avail. and one more try and their sins become hers. she has now ruined the pew of the church. edit undo would be perfect right now. to wake from this horror too. she willingly would die for her own sins now. death will happen... soon. they will take her life or what is left. she can not undo her endeavors. she hates her sin and that she tried to cover theirs. it should be a lesson learned, but nonetheless, the sins of the people will need to be covered... once again. but this time by HIM.

HOPE

something supernatural goes on when you obey God and serve like you have been created to serve (Ritchie Miller, Avalon Church).

one needy one blind

If a needy person has to tell you that he is in need there is something wrong with your outreach. Lord forgive me when I am spiritually blind to the needs of others.

big storm, small boat

Nathan's devotional last night was on how Jesus calmed the storm(Matt 8:23-27). We may be in our big storm,the boat feels like it is about to sink and we may even question if God cares or even hears us, let alone sees what we are going through. The disciples shouted out to Jesus and he was awakened. Jesus asks 2 questions regarding fear and faith, then tells the storm to stop. Have I (you) shouted out to Him today?