in the ditch

feeling like a failure, that is what he said. knowing good enough that he has done all humanly possible to get out of this rut. wanting to move on, but being trapped in the ditch. needing to forgive that jerk... cause that is all he was. satan wanting him to hold on to that grudge... wanting him to waller in what he feels is failure. God alone seeing him try, but wanting him to release the hurt. how much longer, i beg and plead. just when you think you are driving up hill only to find out you haven't even made it to the hill and your brakes are out. thank You for just getting us this far. done all we can at this point. only You can keep us and move us on or keep us here. frustrated at it. i hear the heartbeat of my son. will you be the only one?