heart bleeds

My heart bleeds. It is hard for me to see beyond today. Saw pics of who I used to be. Know where I would like to be. I smile for a moment. I am not driving. I am being driven. It is hard to "sit" in this seat some days. It is my nature to want to drive. You know. Every moment I must give You control. Here's the keys. I need you to drive. Drive me.