turning 5

whirl wind of a day, working then cooking and cleaning and heading to walmart..... need I say more, getting the cupcakes and balloons. i am about to fall over. he's about to be 5. keep thinking that i will wake up from this dream and he will be holding his bottle all over again. i love him soooo much. still wish we could have and could give him that one thing that i know he wanted and still wants. my heart sinks. when will this all be over and we can give him that. or heck, just try. still can't believe that 5 years ago one of the best things that ever happened to me became a reality.