wondering where

i am sitting here, just finishing reading my friends blog and flipping to my own. wonder where all the time has gone and why i can't leave a detailed account of Nathan and how he has grown. everything seems like a slow but fast whirlwind most days. trying to get a glimpse of YOU through this tunnel i feel that i am in. my heart has hands though. they reach towards YOU. no make up on, but YOU don't mind... YOU see me beyond that stuff anyways. oh, by the way, i know YOU like my cell phone.

exodus 8

15 But when Pharaoh saw that relief had come, he became stubborn.^[c] He refused to listen to Moses and Aaron, just as the Lord had predicted.

(When they saw that relief had come and their troubles were gone, they went back to doing what they were doing. They did not show true repentance. Repentance should not be attempted for relief so we can get back to business as usual. It requires the fruit of change with no return.)

power push

the strength of a push is more powerful when you got someone pushing the same direction with you.

self argument

got that really tired feeling going on this morning. i have those sinus bags under my eyes and i am arguing with myself. don't want to be up and would rather throw myself back into the bed. worried about my friend. she probably has something by now and is spreading it amongst her friends. she is still my friend and my heart bleeds for her.. knowing she is trying to fill a hole with something that is only eating the dirt out from under her. her hole is just getting deeper and i want to throw her a line. i argue with myself again and nothing is accomplished. i bow my head and pray one more time that she would return to the REAL YOU and exchange the lie for the TRUTH.

puttin it off

i know , i know. i am slacking in my.... abilities. i am finding it hard to manage facebook, email and blogging. guess i put one before the other. should have just gotten up running yesterday and today. i won't miss today though. i will do it during nap time if i must. got to run. busy day again today.

playing dead

even my dog can't do this, but amazingly, my husband can. we have been awake for an hour and i know he is too. too stubborn to unleash the sheet. he stays still. coffee gets cold by the bed side stand. yet he knows it is there. can't wait all day, ya know. so I run on.

nlt disbelief

but he laughed to himself in disbelief. “How could I become a father at the age of 100?” he thought. “And how can Sarah have a baby when she is ninety years old?” (Gen.17:17)

in the still

in the still of your presence, i am listening Lord. i am still, i am quiet, i am yours

brooklyn tab this is your house live

rainy day and satan thought he could defeat me and keep me from doing God's will... i push on still. he thinks he has one on me, defeating God's plan... but i will try again. found this song on a cd that only a child could have handed to me. spoke what i needed.

"Lord, our eyes are weak and we're blinded to the truth of WHO WE ARE every time we look, we're reminded of the things that stain our hearts
(Chorus) for You are holy, holy, holy are you Lord And You are worthy, worthy, worthy are you Lord
Why does Your mercy come like the morning and Your light dispel my dark Lord, I don't deserve Your love that RESTORES me and I'm humbled by Your heart
(C)
You reign in majesty and we fall on bended knee to praise You, all of our days, May the story of OUR LIVES be worship in YOUR eyes, Let our hearts shout of Your glory You are holy, holy, holy are you Lord And you are worthy, worthy, worthy are you Lord......"

wondering

i spend most of my time now wondering who i am and what i did with the person that i thought i was

matt 5:23-24

23 “So if you are presenting a sacrifice^[i] at the altar in the Temple and you suddenly remember that someone has something against you, 24 leave your sacrifice there at the altar. Go and be reconciled to that person. Then come and offer your sacrifice to God.

should be blogging

i know, i know. i should be blogging. with email, face book and this bad boy, i just have a hard time managing it all. felt you to touch my right knee this morning. i know it was you or one of your angels. it was way too real. why did you just turn my computer off. thought i was talking to you. hmmmm.