swingset and running

guess you know about my week at school. all i can do is sigh. seems like an unending battle some days. trip and fall and get up with a black eye. i shake my head. satan just wants me to give up and quit. thought about it. then i heard this

Heb. 12:2 (message) Keep your eyes on Jesus, who both began and finished this race we're in.... He never lost sight of where he was headed.... he could put up with anything along the way: cross, shame, whatever....others have suffered far worse than you, to say nothing of what Jesus went through... So don't feel sorry for yourselves...."

better me

was thinking about how we sometimes become better people when we hang out with people that motivate us to be better. now sometimes we know that that is why we hang out with them, sometimes it takes awhile for us to realize it. and then sometimes those people don't always know that they are motivating us to become better people. kind of confusing i am sure. i can tell by the look on your face.

i have this new friend that literally fell from heaven and she makes me laugh, feel sane and hey,she motivates me to be better. just wondering if there is anyone in my life that looks at me that way?

monkey back rides

kids do say silly things sometimes. last night nathan was trying to hop on my back and said "mama, come on, give me a monkey back ride." i laughed and told him it was called a piggy back ride . so in his frustration, begged for the piggy back ride. then spent 10 minutes trying to convince him that i only gave monkey back rides and no piggy back rides. he finally agreed and hopped on. i have to say, the kid had it right. a monkey back ride looks more right than the piggy back.

motivated to sale

it's gonna rain and i know it. and it is not because my right leg and elbow are aching. i just know my God. He is faithful to give us what we need, when we need. Not what we want, when we want it. started cleaning again and throwing away and making a stack to take to the thrift store. i want to be ready. getting my umbrella out, cause i am expecting it to pour. no need to wait. I will be ready.

to infinity and beyond

as a parent, i often make bad choices. sometimes i make good choices, but not great choices. today i made all three. the best choice today was going to fly the buzz lightyear kite with Nathan. it was a beautiful day and one i will never forget. thanks, nathan, for helping me make a memory that will last to infinity and beyond

sane

having a sane moment today. Lord, don't let this feeling end. actually cleaned a bit and didn't feel overwhelmed or frustrated. not perfect by anymeans, but sure beats what it looked like. ran the vac all over the house, and dusted the corners and some wood work too. even sprayed some fabreeze and washed a few loads. wow. i am amazed at my self... for the moment

washer

having a moment of successful unplanned cleaning when down below a young child says "mama, it's making that noise again!" i tune my ears and hear it too. i run downstairs and push the button. it stops. i rearrange the items and start again. the joys of having an unbalanced washer. just reminded me that no one has the perfect life or anything for that matter. it is all about balance.

stuck in the mud

setbacks, failure, discouragement, defeat. seems like when you finally feel that your wheels are now on pavement, something happens and sets you back into the mud. just needed some time of blessing and fruitfulness. now i have to pay a day or more wages each week to have my son with me at work this summer. just want to put on my cape and fly away. kim, can i borrow your broom?

dilemma

my friend has this dilemma. she thinks that when her neighbor walks her dog, that the dog poops in her yard and the neighbor isn't taking the package with her. what should my friend do? she admits that she has considered putting the package in an envelope and placing it at her neighbor's door or in her mailbox. my argument was, did you see the dog do it? No. but she believes with all that is in her that the dog is leaving his package and she could be very well right. which brings me to the age old question.... what would Jesus do? i laugh to myself at this one. my friend is the pastor's wife. she knows good from bad and right from wrong. yet this dog thing is aggravating her. (i could say the same for dirty socks on the floor!) maybe she should go door to door and hand out boxes of dog poo bags to all the neighbors. or better yet, while her neighbor is sleeping, dress in black and slide a box of poo bags on the front door rug. i don't have the answer. that is just part of loving your neighbor... regardless of the crap. Jesus didn't say it would be easy, but worth it.

reservoirs

Delores Kuenning (Helping People through Grief as quoted in Quiet Times for Parents) "We cannot suddenly draw from deep reservoirs of faith within ourselves if nothing has been done to nurture our spiritual lives in the past...."

fish buffet

Luke 9;17 " So they all ate and were filled...."

All this to say that had to be broken first, before they were filled. This was a true buffet.

one foot off the ground

having faith is a lot like the guy on the side of the cliff hanging on to a twig. he knows he is going to fall and is holding on for dear life..... only to find that if he lets go he is one foot off the ground. my pastor asked in his blog, if it is easier to trust that our bank account is sufficient or to say God will provide? i have to be honest and say that i've been on both sides of that fence. i reach beneath the surface of who i am and know which one makes me feel more secure. i hang my head in shame.... yet a piece of me is in that other place.... knowing there is no way out of this hole, this cliff without Him, so i must trust, must believe that His hand could reach down and pull us up. i know when we finally let go of the twig i will have a lot of stories to tell of all He has brought us through. my only question is why am i not doing it now?

spider man @ l pm

still doing and playing around the house @ 1 PM. he is spider man with play dough in his hands. just an hour left and we are out the door. finally convincing him to take a bath. i keep on.''

Luke 11:9
"And so I tell you, KEEP ON asking, and you will receive what you ask for. KEEP ON seeking, and you will find. KEEP ON knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, THE DOOR WILL BE OPENED."

pain reliever

saw nathan's pain reliever sitting by the sink. true pain reliever can't be bought over the counter or behind the counter for that matter. just thinking of those who need to find relief and try to find it any where but up.

Hosea 10:12 "It is time to seek the Lord."

10 cent sweater

can't get my mind to slow down so that i can think today. longing deeply to sit like Mary but knowing the feelings of Martha. having my feelings of craziness again. just want things where they are supposed to be. can't catch up for piling more clothes in the wash. no time to deal with the clean pile. my frustration mounts. i have no energy and things begin to spin. i wonder about my self and how all this has come to a head. my choices of today and yesterday mingle. Lord, you know I haven't made the best choices in the past. Forgive me of my laziness and bitter feelings. i seek my silent space.... inner peace and outer peace. want to have that JOY again. wondering what really drives me and him. give him a peace and show him what You are really thinking. lack of embrace hurts me spiritually. wanting him to grasp hold of YOU.... while i wear my ten cent sweater.